I don't think I've ever been MIA for this long on my blog and that is because some exciting but at the same time scary things have happened. This week I really felt the guilt weighing on me and I really wanted to start blogging again because I absolutely love my blog and really missed it.
So what has been going on?
I got a 6 month internship in the PR deparment of a major company, which is something I have been hoping for and working towards for quite some time now and I couldn't be happier. So now that I work full time I won't be having as much time for blogging anymore but I will try my best to keep up with it on the weekends. Even my Instagram suffered from this but believe it or not there aren't many photo ops in an office. So I lay my hope in the weekends and my upcoming holiday in a few weeks to provide me with some great Insta and blog content.
But anyway, back to my new job:
As someone who isn't very keen on change and is a queen of self-doubt, scoring a new job can be quite initimidating. New tasks, new challenges, new people, a new environment. Because this is something I really want I was really quite calm and collected up until two days before my first day at the internship. It was a weird feeling of excitement and anxiety, of confidence and doubt, all at the same time. But since I promised myself to just let things come my way this year I really tried hard not to go into worry-mode and I think I did pretty well so far. Regarding this, I also had kind of an epiphany: since I decided to not let my anxiety plan out my life for me and let things come my way and be a little bit more accepting of change and unforseeable events, amazing things have happened, including this internship. It also helps to counter act on my anxiety as well. Just letting things happen once in a while leaves you no choice but to do things that you are normally scared of and to step out of your comfort zone, which generally is the best method to overcoming fears.
One thing I discovered though is that even though you might think you have it all figured out because you went to university, a job in the real world gives you a major reality check. I am still overwhelmed sometimes with the amount of new things to learn and remember, which can get quite frustrating if you think of yourself as someone who normally gets things quickly and does everything with the highest standards of perfection. But ultimately that's what an internship is for: to learn. My new boss told me that it's not a problem to make a mistake once but that you should have the demand on youself to not do the same mistake twice and this is what eventually lets you grow and evolve. As a perfectionist mistakes are sometimes hard to cope with but I found that doing something right the second time around gives you that feeling of pride and accomplishment and it also motivates you to prove yourself and do better. However I am so appreciative and happy about the things I get to learn on a daily basis now and I've never been so motivated to evolve.
I hope with this post I broke the spell and my blogging hiatus is gonna be over but I can't make any promises. Always trying though!
xx Laura
